Face black another shadow of innocence tainted
  Gave back all the lights and glitter
  Wrong track again and again is stings
  Wish you all could feel like this
  12 is for the reason of regret
  9 is for the pain that I'm caused
  Will strife ever cease? Someday...
  Fuck this mind that is made to hate
  Complete the task of humility
  Restrained from who they want me to be
  That's what they want me to be
  That is not quite good enough for me
  Fuck you and your thoughts on me
  Fuck you and your thoughts of me
  Fuck you how can I not be me
  Fuck you I will never let you take me
  I will never be that good little one
  I can never see what is so good about life
  I can never change just who I am or what is I think I am doing
  My hands fell down now I know I failed
  You were not there to pick up the waste of this pathetic tale
  Maybe I should just end all this right here
  Would you like that?
  Maybe you could cope knowing that you all have succeeded
  I am staying here to betray all of you
  Never failing me again
  Cut a little...it bleeds slowly can you see it ooze?
  I'm going to save me
  My eyes turn the color jade
  I look at everyone around me
  I am so sick of this place
  Anyone and anything makes me sick
  I just want to end it all
  I return to my room walls white with black shades
  Oh how would red look?
  The reasons are not for your ears
  The feelings are not for your heart
  I circle in tears wishing, hoping, dreaming
  Can I find a way out besides this?
  I need it
  I want to be where you are
  I miss you