no more smile and no more outrage
  apathy pervasive emotions narcoleptic
  no more smiles since fucking sunday
  sinking feelings drinking early stinking septic
  stinking like a dream
  spoken outside in outside voices
  struck silent into shruddering and cold ground padded noises
  sucking myself up a truth that i don't need
  last nights i don't believe
  no slowing down
  no faces smile no lips that frown
  grey to neutral every synapse
  stinking thoughts a pool of dinner
  wipe my mouth and hope to die
  this street is cold early morning noises
  this body reeling ugly early morning choices
  no more drinks til fucking noon
  stinking teeth and gums a blackening that sets in soon
  and an all revealing smile
  just falling down
  won't make these hours turn around
  i wish i could remember what i'm trying to forget