you hadn't seen your father in such a long time
  he died in the arms of his lover how dare he
  your mother never left the house
  she never married anyone else you took it upon yourself to console her
    you reminded her so much of your father
  so you were banished and you wonder why you're so hypersensitive
  and why you can't trust anyone but us
  but then how can I begin to forgive her so many years under bridges with dirty water
  she was foolish and selfish and cowardly if you ask me
    I don't know where to begin in all of my 50 odd years
  I have been silently suffering and adapting perpetuating and enduring
  who are you younger generation to tell me that I have unresolved problems
  not many examples of fruits of this type of excruciating labour
    how can you just throw words around like grieve and heal and mourn
  I feel fine we may not have been born as awake as you were
  it was much harder in those days we had paper routes uphill both ways
  we went from school to a job to a wife to instant parenthood
    I walked into his office I felt so self-conscious on the couch
  he was sitting down across from me he was writing down his hypothesis I don't know
  i've got a loving supportive wife who doesn't know how involved she should get
  you say his interjecting was him just calling me on my shit?
    just the other day my sweet daughter I was driving past 203 I walked up the stairs in my mind's eye
  I remember how they would creak loudly
  she was only responsive with a drink he was only responsive by photo
  I was only trying to be the best big brother I could
    i've walked sometimes confused sometimes ready to crack open wide
  sometimes indignant sometimes raw
  can you imagine I pay him 75 dollars an hour sometimes
  it feels like highway robbery
  and sometimes it's peanuts
  I wish it could last a couple more hours
    so here we both are battling similar demons (not coincidentally)
  you see n getting beyond knowing it solely intellectually you're not relinquishing your majestry
  you are wise you are warm you are courageous you are big
  and I love you more now than I ever have in my whole life