i'd be lying if I said I was completely unscathed
  I might be proving you right with my silence or my retaliation
  would I be letting you win in my non reaction?
  how would I explain?
  how would I explain this to my children if I had them?
  because I can't not
  because I can't not
  because I can't afford to be misread one more time
  would I be whining if I said I needed a hug?
  would you feel slighted if I said your love's not enough?
  how can I complain?
  how can I complain when i'm the one who reaches for it?
  because I can't not
  because I can't not
  because I cannot walk without my crutches
  because I can't not
  because I can't not
  because I can't help wonder why you ask me
  to all the unheard wisdom in the schoolyard
  you think you're the right ones
  you think you're the charmed ones i'm sure
  how can you go on with such conviction?
  and who do you think you are why do you question me?
  because we can't not
  because we can't not
  because we can't help laugh at underestimations
  because we can't not
  because we can't not
  because we can't afford to be misled one more time
  because we can't not
  because we can't not
  because we cannot help without your willingness
  why do you affect me? why do you affect me still?
  why do you hinder me? why do you hinder me still?
  why do you unnerve? why do you unnerve me still?
  why do you trigger me? why do you trigger me still?