dear matthew I like you a lot I realize you're in a relationship
  with someone right now and I respect
  that I would like you to know that if you're ever single
  in the future and you want to come visit me in california
  I would be open to spending time with you and finding
  out how old you were when you wrote your first song
    dear jonathan I liked you too much I used to be attracted to boys
  who would lie to me and think solely about themselves and you
  were plenty self-destructive for my taste at the time I used to say
  the more tragic the better the truth is whenever I think of the early 90's
  your face comes up with a vengeance like it was yesterday
    dear terrance I love you muchly you've been nothing
  but open hearted and emotionally available and supportive
  and nurturing and consummately there for me I kept drawing you in
  and pushing you away I remember how beautiful it was to fall asleep
  on your couch and cry in front of you for the first time you
  were the best platform from which to jump beyond myself what
  was wrong with me
    dear marcus you rocked my world you had a charismatic way
  about you with the women and you got me
  seriously thinking about spirituality and you wouldn't let me get away
  with kicking my own ass but I could never really feel relaxed and looked out
  for around you though and that stopped us from going any further
  than we did and it's kinda too bad becasue we could've had much more fun
    dear lou we learned so much I realize we won't be able to talk for some time
  and I understand that as I do you
  the long distance thing was the hardest and we did as well as we could
  we were together during a very tumultuous time
  in our lives I will always have your back and be curious about you
  about your career about your whereabouts